User blog comment:Cottonfur/For Those It May Concern:/@comment-37996823-20181231130221

(Apologies in advance for any typos, I’m writing this at 8 in the morning on a tiny dim phone screen without glasses on. It’s a great combination can recommended.)

I randomly remembered this wiki as I was trying to fall asleep and had to check it out, and what a surprise to see something recently posted. Guess I’ll join in on the “where are they now” as well. I... don’t even know what most of you would remember me as. I don’t even remember my username or anything like that and had to create a temp account to post this comment. I think the name I used most recently and most of you might recognize would be Gem. So much time has passed since I last wrote here, but it was such a big part of my life when I was a kid so it only feels right to post something. My earliest memory of this place was that I had joined at 9, well below the age restriction, and accidentally revealed that on another wiki. One of the members there followed me here and revealed my age, but everyone immediately jumped to my defense and shamed the other person for tracking me down just to get me in trouble. Ah, the sweet memory of rule-breaking. :p As for what has happened since... Well, the most major thing is that I came out as trans and started living as a guy. In retrospect, my obsession with roleplaying and how I was trying to constantly reinvent myself was probably an indication of that. Every few years I would make a new account and join as someone new, someone different and better than I actually was. I knew I didn’t like who I currently was but I didn’t gave the words to describe what I wanted, so I guess I thought if I created infinite different variations of myself I would eventually stumble across what I was looking for. Hint hint past me, the problem you kept running into was that you made all of them girls. :p I got closer when I created male characters to roleplay, but I was scared by how. Happy I felt doing so. ...Thinking about it, a magenta cat named Crabclaw helped me realize who I truly was. Hmm. That’s too weird so I’m just not gonna think about it. I also relate to what other people are saying about having a bad home life they needed to escape from. On top of my problems with identity, my life was... pretty bad. There was a lot of mental abuse going on from one side of my family and traumatic events frequently occurring on the other. I couldn’t turn to one side because they were my abusers, and the other side had their own problems that were much larger than mine, so I distracted myself with the internet. The situation is still kinda, not great, but it’s better than it was when I was in here, and soon I’ll be legally independent and able to leave. I’m now a junior in high school and I’m hoping to enter into a field that has to do with writing(big surprise there), history, or politics. I’m still low key obsessed with roleplaying, which has been channeled into the form of Dungrons & Dragons. I recently joined a new group and I’m very excited to play with them! Ironically, one of the favorite characters I’ve played was a tabaxi, which is basically a cat person. I wonder where that came from, hmm? :p It’s sad to see this place officially be declared closed. Some part of my mind thought that it would stay alive forever just by pure force of nostalgia. But if there’s one thing I’ve learned, sometimes things need to end, or they end up a twisted shadow of what they once were(glances at numerous tv shows out of the corner of my eye). I guess this is my last goodbye. It was fun to have played with you all, even if it was in the form of like 20 different accounts because I kept making new ones. :,D